150- CBT2016- 11 & 12

I came back from my 12th CBT session and now it's time for me to summarize it - after I discuss briefly the previous one from 9th of November. 

That one was preceded by 3 weeks during which I had great difficulties and had lost motivation as I was feeling under the great pressure of my mental health - as I detailed in post 145.

149- Dysmorphia, self-image and gender WIP (2)

grab a cuppa, you'll get 1,364 words to read hereafter!

As a continuation to several previous entries about non-binary gender, and self esteem issues that I suffer from to this day, I want to discuss aspects I only began in post 148 and found my entry growing far too long, and which concerns mostly my dysmorphia (hair and vocal)  I now pursue my train of thought into a second part. 

148- Dysmorphia, self-image and gender WIP (1)

As a continuation to several previous entries about non-binary gender, and self esteem issues that I suffer from to this day, I want to discuss aspects I previously didn't even mention.

The first of these is Dysmorphia, which is an obsessive preoccupation that one or several aspects of one's own appearance is or are flawed and would require  measures to fix or hide.  

Content trigger warning including mention of DV 

147- The Vegan tag

November is International vegan month. I follow my wife's example and participate in the vegan tag - in blog form.

146- Coming out ...

I have delayed this post for quite a while, but I think it's high time to tell you something very important : I'm coming out... as an atheist.

There, I said the unfathomable A-word. This dirty word that seems to shock far too many people, as if it was synonymous with being a sinner and evil person when it has actually to do with the contrary.

145- Mental health weight

Sometimes, my mental health just weighs so much on my shoulders, it feels as heavy as a 16T brick - like in the famous Monty Python sketch.  I wish I had more vacation from my numerous phobias and post-traumatic shenanigans. 

I've been feeling the over-presence of my mental illnesses so acutely, it became once more quite depressing. It's just not a good feeling to experience so much weight and fatigue from these issues - these social anxieties and numerous other phobias, especially copro, emeto, and blood phobias which make my daily living a series of difficulties and limit my activities, governs my choices in entertainment.